at home.. getting ready

on the way there.. the difference: the fair and the tan!

me again. in da cab!

the birthday boy: Fabian

the besties!

standard procedure.. in da ladies ( somehow.. she look alot bigger size than me last night. whaha)

haiyo.. why he smile until so mian qiang? i know the girl he wanna take pic with is not me also no need like tat. cos the girl who he like is jus beside me.. whahaha!

den we start to get abit tipsy

and i saw him too....

anyway.. i wanted to take a pic with yvonne.. but i forgot.. cos she's busy ta-ing with ppl.. whaha.. den when we are going back tat time........

andrew trying to locate his 'lover' .. calling her to snatch her back from the small chilli and make her sit in altis instead... whahaha.. look at his stress face man.. funny.. lol

PUKING!

http://www.spikedhumor.com/articles/29064/Lost_Reality_He_Said_She_Said.html?autoplay=true

watch this.. haha

finally i can relax a bit this weekend..

and next week's gonna be my term break.

ntu call it recess

its been ages since i use this word..

recess is related to tuckshop

and tuckshop is related to fishball noodle soup

and recess is related to bookshop

and bookshop is related to erasers!

haha

its like.. 13 yrs ago?

anyway..

next week i still have to study for 2 more tests and 2 projects more to go..

but i can do it in a more relax pace..

CLUBS.. here i come..

i'm gonna rock the dance floor again!!

whahahhaa

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went ecp again.. blading with sandra..

i bought my PPE (Personal Protective Equipment)

whaha

my guards..

it cost me freaking $39.90

FULL BATTLE ORDER

surprisingly.. i didn't fall yesterday..

and did i mention tat it was the longest distance i've blade??

whole body damn sticky and sweaty..

awhaha..

but we enjoy it...

and we even talk about joining the longest roller blade guiness world record which is organising in spore..

whaha..

pics will be posted up soon

i'm a healthy girl again!

=P

peace-out

its the first time i drove adn something happened..

while i was parking last nite hitt the side mirror cos the lot is super tight..

the whole mirror crack..

but surprisingly, the paint wasnt scrap off..

i forget to take a pic of it..

this morn, dad says nvm..

jus make sure i didnt hit other car..

cos i hit into a pilar..

i'm so TOUCHED!

wahhaa

this morning my dad woke me up cos i told him last night tat my lesson today is at 0830.

as usual, i can't drag myself outa my bed..

however, something not usual was tat he didn't really keep bugging me to wake up..

HE LET ME SLEEP!!!

the next thing i know..

mom ask me if i need chicken essence.. so she heat it up for me..!!!

and cos dad is going to tuas.. he offered to give me a lift..

so i agreed.. and some how.. i went back to sleep again..

so he actually send my mom to work.. den come back home.. sit there.. wait for me to wake up to send me to tuas.. haha..

actually i didn't wake up myself.. he told me he need to go over to woodlands to get some document.. so den i woke up..

i have wonderful parents.!!

keke
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now the bad news is....

i took my damn paper today and i think i'm going to fail..

first time ever went for a paper so unprepared..

so no confident..

argh...!!!

i was studying at the mac behind my hse jus now..

i was there for about 4 hrs.. and i realise nothing went into my head..

bloodyhell...

how am i suppose to past the test???

the eqn are all so foreign to me..

hm..

i brought everythign there..

text book..

tutorials..

notes..

and even my lap top..

FULL BATTLE ORDER..

but still...

effort in vain..

today is such a suay day for me...

suppose to go for tutorial at 1.30..

i left home late..

so as usual i was late..

cos i didn't wanna miss the tutorial, i took mrt to outram.. and took a cab..

it cos me almost 15 bucks!

when i reach sch.. it was already 2..

so no pooint..

bloody hell waste my 15 bucks

so i went for lunch.. cos the canteen is so pack..

i bought the food and eat at a ulu corner..

how pathetic..

after tat on my way home..

power failure..

mrt cannot move..

wat the hell!!!!!!!

wat the hell am i doing?

its freaking 5.35am now.. and i can't sleep. i'm so freaking awake!!!!

maybe i should read some books.. it hypnotises me!

i had a conversation with angel jus now..

i told her something is wrong.. something is darn wrong..

guess she would be the one who understand my situation most now cos she's in the same shoes as me...

so .. wat is wrong?

sometimes when we are doing the wrong things.. we didn't realise it..

and we need ppl to tell us tat we are doing the wrong things..

however.. in our sub consious mind.. the devil always win the angel..

thing about it..

if everyone ard u is against wat u are doing.. maybe they are right..

but in ur own world.. you jus think tat wat u r doing is darn right and u simply ignore their words for good..

so in my consious mind now.. i start to ponder..

am i doin the right thing?

if i am, why are ppl around me against it?

well, i tot i was right. but i guess i am wrong..

angel and i ought to do something about it...

slap ourselves and think hard...

if u realise, the harder u think, the harder the devil tries to drag u to where he is..

wat happen to the angellic side of us???

why are we always affected by the devil?

stab the devil in me..

i wanna change life..

i wanna change it to wat i wan

i spend the whole day thinking of wat i wan..

and i finally came up with something..

i hope i can live up to my words..

its a promise for myself and no one..

cos i live for myself...

i know i'm getting abit self-centered here..

who doesn't?

i wanna be the original eunice..

stop having split-personality... (cos i think i have)

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i can't really describe the feelings i have in me now.. they are mixed up.. jus atoms during a reaction.. jus running around the place like no body business.. and its a exothermic one i swear.. cos i might jus explode one day if i cannot take it..
whaha.. i'm using such scientific terms.. where is my catalyst?? i need them to speed up my ability to sort things out..

i have so much to say.. my vocab is limited.. i can't put it in nice wonderful words which able to 100% explain how i feel at this very moment..

all i need now....
time... more time.. 24 hrs a day aint enuff for me..

why do i feel so lost??

struggling my life thru' miserably

things are not wat i want them to be..

sch...

is life in ntu like tat??

sometimes i wished i can open myself to more things ard me...

however i choose to shut the door to things tat i shouldn't...

my life...

do i wannna continue to live this kinda life??

wat do i wan?

i always ask my self the same old question and i always fail to come up with an answer.

who do i live for?

and wat do i live for?

wat do i forsee myself to be 5 yrs down the road?

i do not have any freaking idea..

friends?

yesh.. i have alot of hi bye friends.. too much for a list..

good frens? afew will do..

how many do i have??

i currently have 2.

and i realised,

without them, without justin..

i have no life...

get a life Eunice..

i couldn't open my heart for other stuff.. other people.. other activities..

wat happen to the Eunice years ago??

have i change??

if yes, i dun think its for the better,is it?

i seriously dun feeel good now..

cos its not going the way i wan them to be..

i wished i can have been more independent..

can i??

i dreamt of a familiar figure wearing white shirt and black pants last night...

i couldn't remember wat was the dream about

i could onli remember the familiar figure dress like tat for the past few months..

i dreamt about me quarrelling with sandra..

and angel jus stand one side to watch..

right after tat i was pissed with angel because she fly my aeroplane after waiting for her for 1 hr

i dreamt about me scuba diving.. in paris..

weird..

and i even ask the italian couple tat i saw about settling in paris..

i was so alone..

i told the couple tat i'm alone.. and i wanna stay in paris

and live a new live there..

the couple replied, "its difficult.. cos you need to be really independent"

i paused for awhile and think..
"am i independend enuff?"

and i realised i am not..

my eyes opended.. and i found myself lying on the usual bed tat i'm slping..

its time to wake up.. 6 am..

i woke up.. and didn't go to sch..

i started pondering again..

and slowly my lids are too heavy..

so i went back to sleep..

2 and half years...

from girl-next-door

to who i am now

from a non-smoker

to who i am now

from thrifty

to who i am now..

2 half years..



we always dun treasure wat we have.. until we lose it..

until the point of time when u lose it.. den you'll start to regret on things tat you've not done. or done..

it was until i lost kiwi den i realise i havn't bathe him before..

and i seldom walk him..

it was until i lose something.. and i realiste i havn't been nice..

why we human always end up regretting stuff??

when problem occurs. face it.

ppl like me keep running away..

and before i knew it.. the problem overtook me..

there's no way i could run faster..



somebody told me.. being too long in a relationship.. sometimes u mixed tat feeling up..

could it be u still love the person deeply and truely?

or could it be u are simply too used to the person??

does ur perfect guy fufil all the critirial u have in ur checklist?

or does he perfectly fit into the picture u've created in ur heart?

wat is love?

can someone pls tell me..

This time round.. i'm really sick..

woke up alone..

cooking my own lunch.. porridge..

calling up my tuttees to cancel tuition..

having my pathetic lunch at home alone..

going to the doc alone..

reach home rest..

-end of day-

DBL-O

i remember last time when i started clubbing.. i frequent chinablack.. so i keep going and going.. i did visit other clubs.. but not as often..

right after i tone down abit cos at tat time i was having my poly exams.. and somehow during tat period of time clubbing is not the onli life i haf....

was onli until late last year tat i realised i jus became a hard core clubber.. and during tat time.. momo was my choice.. or rather.. our (my pals) choice..
we ended up stop going there due to invasion by some kinda of ppl tat we dun really like... (duration: 1 mth)

soon after, phuture was our next form of poison.. visiting there every clubbing days (wed, fri, sat).. reason tat we stop going?? u find all the kiddy ppl there..
kama kasi was the drink of all time...
(duration: 3 mths)

We den soon change our destination to MOS as it was newly opened and the topic of all clubbers.. we did the craziest thing there. and tat was 1 bottle of martell finished up by 3 girls.. whaha.. it was onli until a club hopping day tat i hopped from mos to dbl o.. (duration: 3 mths)

and since then.. dbl o is the onli place you'll find me on wed and fri..

i've been to so much clubs.. oh welll... at least.. almost all tat i'm eligible to get in i got in.. and of all.. i rated dbl o the best..

why?
the good crowd
music is good

and they have the best drinks!
oh alright.. its cheap i know.. but its not onli about the price.. its about the drink itself..
i jus realise i simple dun like drinks in other clubs..
sorry.. i should rephrase myself..
i like the drinks in other clubs.. but i jus love the drinks at dbl o

last but not least..
its my company..
i love the ppl who go there with me...
=P
winkz
(duration: 2 mths up till now)

one thing bad about dbl o is tat it close at 3.
well.. is alright.. cos there's always momo waiting for us right after..