i'm down with eye infection again. or should i say my eye infection has not recover yet.

the moment i put on my contact lens, my eyes swell and redness set in.

went for the doc again.

he told me exactly the same as wat the previous one told me. no lenses for 1 week.

in addition to it, if this continue, i may not be able to wear contact lens again.

i can't live with glassess all the way!! how how how... someone pls help...

back from malecca

back from eating

hell lots of nice food..

chicken rice
the chicken is so so.. but the rice is damn good. its rice balls
(cheap and good)

steak @ amingo
(cheap. food is so so)

satay zulop
(cheap and damn good)

peranakan food
there's a restaurant name makko. food damn UP. price abit ex.
another one tat sells dessert and noodles. (cheap and good!!)

teochew restaurant
nice teochew crusine.. (good but price is abit steep)

my sony ericsson k800i died on me. I dunno wat happened and the next thing i know, it couldn't be switched on again. its one of my fav hp cos of the camera. shyte. my contacts, pictures and saved msges all in there.

luckily baby left his nokia 6280 or dunno wat model at my place. so i'm using it for the time being. i hate the phone. cos i dun wanna use the same hp as "someone else" plus on top of tat, the pictures inside make me dulan when i see it. the more i see, i more dulan i am. plus, i hate the buttons.! so difficult to press. especially the button '1', '2' and '3'. its obstructing my long beautiful finger nails.

i wish my k800i will recover soon. if not, a new phone will do good. I'm eyeing on the 2 sided phone. dunno wat model also. i'm a technology idiot.

i hate myself..

i wish i have 1 or 2 activities tat i'll do when i'm not in a good mood.

ppl go swimming or jogging when in shitty mood.

for me, i do nothing but rot.

hate having busy and tiring day. But i hate having nothing to do either.

been rather lazy to dress up for going out recently. So i rather not go out. On the other hand, i dislike the feeling of rotting at home. nothing seem to satisfy me.

sometime. the tot of clubbing stirred up tonight. yes, its been ages seem i/we had our crazy wednesday ladies' nite. . .

does karma exist?? sometimes we really cannot don't believe.

cut it short. dye it black.

my new look...











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my freshly manicured nails...

i wanted very much to tell myself what i see is not what i thought.

but, how can i buy ur story when it is so fucking 'non-logical'.

which idiot will buy it??

i hate this feeling.

i hope this is a nightmare tat i'll wake up soon. and when i wake up, i wish all these hasn't happen.

how foolish!

its pretty normal for a girl to complain to her gfs about her bf. sometimes, we do not need a solution, we jus need a listening ear. we complain to our gf cos venusian think alike.

some of my gf complained to me about their bf and i wondered why despite tat, they still try to deceive themselves tat their bf, afterall, are not as bad as they describe.

i used to secretly laugh at them and say, 'how foolish!'

now, despite wat i saw, i'm trying to decieve myself tat wat i see ain't wat i tot.

'how foolish'

despite the confidence that i have, i still have my inferior moments.

sometimes i feel that i am not good enough for certain things...

i dun think i can make it big in the future, unless given luck

i doubt myself if i can even complete my degree, get a cert, wear my graduation 'robe' and make my parent see me walking up the stage.

i doubt my competency as a tuitor

i doubt my ability being a good fren, good gf, good daughter, good sister

back to contact lens....
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i crave for chcee cheong fan and zui kuay

i really wish my hair were longer..

i wan it really long..

or really short..

i hate my hair now..

feel like going for extension..

or cutting it really short..

i needa do something about my hair..

pls give me ideas...

one of my close friend told me something 3 or 4 yrs ago and i remembered clearly even up till now, and i tot maybe i can share it here. I think its rather true and applies to most people.

I was talking to her about my problems when she reminded me, " when u think u are at the lowest point of ur life, do not only think of the negative. Why don't u image life's like a valley? When u are at ur lowest point, you'll move up again and reach the top."

I think its very motivational for me. In fact, i'm impressed tat she actually could say this.

When we are down, we feel shitty. We fail to think of wat's coming up next, you never know it could be something great.

Life is full of choices. sometimes i rather not have choices, so i do not need to choose. the more choices you have, the more paranoid u are about making the wrong choice.
This good fren of mine reminded me once again that in life, we always choose. Some of us might make the wrong choice and go the wrong direction.
On the other hand, there might be more than 1 path to ur ideal destination. Again, its up to u to choose which path to take. U might end up taking a different route from your fren but at the end of the day, u might end up at the same destination, but wat matter most is the process of ur journey. Its about wat u see and experience before reaching ur destination. Of cos, not forgetting about some routes are shorter, some longer.

i failed my m9 for the 4th time!!

am i stupid or wat??

yeah! finally got my spects. unfortunatelly, after 1 week of infection, i still could not go back to contact lens. because its still infected!!

damn..

gotta live with my spects for next few days ..

I received a call yesterday from strip. I'm asked to be their waxing model and so i agreed. Free waxing. why not?

I went today with the company of xiao hei.

I entered the room and had a shock. 4 ladies in the room. It feel kinda weird for me beause usually my waxing session is only me and the therapist.

So I'm suppose to be their model and let the trainee practise waxing on me.

They did a full leg, full arm and upper lip waxing for me.

So when i first step into the room. they asked me to strip. It feel so funny to strip infront of them 4. To make it less paiseh for me, they turned around. appreciate.

The good thing about this is:
i have more than 1 therapist doing it for me. one for my legs, the other one for my arm. and of cos.. its free..
i always wanted to be hair free. haha

the bad thing is:
because they are not pro yet. so not very clean. haha
plus.. my arms are abit allergy to the wax.


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itchy arms

I teared.

Maybe i jus shouldn't see it.

i've been clubbing non-stop recently.. and i think i'm getting a abit sick of it.

like i've mentioned.. wed was velvet dragon with janice and naimei and partners.

thurs was dragonfly @ st. james with the AIA peeps.

friday was MJ night at my place.

Saturday was blading time for me and BB followed by dbl o with his frens at night.

its been a long time since i got so high. den it was BKT again.

i woke up early morning at 9 plus today to CAD to get things done for xiao mian yang. Because i gotta wait for 2 hrs for it to be ready, Bb and me took a bus to the near by shops for breakfast and to see doc for my infected eyes.

can't wear contact lens for 1 week.

i'll look like nerd for 1 week.